A Significant Event That Changed My Life
An experience in my life that had a huge impact on my life was the birth of my son. I was 18 and preparing for entry in to college. When I found out I was going to be a mother, I was shocked and disappointed, as well as confused. I didn’t see how I was going to be able to parent a child, when in fact I myself was still becoming an adult myself. I still remember the conversation I had with my mom. I said “ Mom there is no way I can do this now, there is no way I can fulfill my dreams and be a teenage mother at the same time. My mom turned around and looked me with dark concerned eyes and said “ baby everything is going to be fine, you come from a family of strong people, whatever we put our mind to we can achieve and you always remember that.” Her words made me feel somewhat better but I was still very disappointed in myself and didn’t see any way that I was going to be able to pursue my dreams as a teenage Mom. It was something I definitely wasn’t prepared for.
During the 9 months of my pregnancy I started to re-evaluate some of the choices I had to make going forward. I would look at myself every day in the mirror and say “ Misha, you can do this.” That single phrase, packed quite a punch. That phrase was just what I needed to put all my fears aside and grow up and be the parent my child needed me to be. On the day my son was born, my husband, then boyfriend and I made a vowel. We vowed that we would strive to become the best possible role models for our son. I looked down at my son and told him “You are my greatest gift and Mommy loves you so much.” He looked into my eyes, grabbed my finger with his little prune like hand and nestled to sleep.
Those first few weeks of “Mommy-hood” weren’t all that easy. There were some nights where I don’t think I got any sleep at all. I seemed like we were up just about every hour whether to feed, or change pampers or just soothe an irritable crying and sometimes inconsolable...