Being an optimistic or a pessimistic can give a person all sorts of characteristics in their personality, how they act socially, and how mentally stable they can be. We deal with situations everyday through our lives and sometimes it shows how we can be either of the two by how we handle all those things. Some people may have a "Debbie downer" or a "Happy Go Lucky" kind of attitude. I may consider myself more on the pessimistic side or even just in between, because I present myself that I'm optimistic but behind that it’s just a different side I have to face.
Throughout my life I have had to overcome many obstacles and changes that made it hard for me to get by every day. It's not that I choose to feel down or see things negative all the time in my own way, it is just a feeling that takes over making me hold grudges and never forgetting or forgiving. I do not like dealing with changes and I certainly always over think everything, analyzing all the details. When school was about to start all I could think of was that I was going to fail in all my classes and not getting the major that I want. I stressed out so much, and literally I was to the point where I was telling myself, "I can't do this, I might as well just join the military and quit what I'm doing." I wanted to take the easy way out.
In the first 12 years growing up, my dad was not involved with me. I knew nothing of him at all; whenever I would ask who he was I was told I never had a father and that he did not care for me. Of course my mom wouldn't dare say that, it was my Tata and her sister that did. One day though out of nowhere I got dropped off at home, and there was a man standing in my house next to my mom, that's when I was introduced to him. From then on we tried building a relationship, but it has always been my mom and I, so I didn't want to deal with the change of a new person coming into my world. He was...