My name is Eugenia MIroshnychenko and I am an addict. With these words I began to break the spell, began to conquer the problem, the problem of my addiction, my chatting frenzy.
I started socially I suppose – an hour a day. It seemed harmless, just innocent chat. But now I’m online for a whole day without even a chance to see the world outside my windows, chatting with different people. It feels like I’m in my own world. Given how hard it is to walk away from the computer, I’m glad I haven’t become addicted to any other things at my age`, like alcohol or smoking.
The online state of mind allows you to cancel out everything outside that world. You don’t get enough sleep, and if you’re a student like me, that means naptime during class. Soon it was frequent use and then a habitual addiction – addiction to chat.
People ask me why I became an addict. I think it was boredom, insecurity and attention-seeking. I was introduced to the Internet when I was in school. I was fascinated by the different websites I could visit, especially ones, where people from the entire world could chat. At first, I didn’t want to create a profile with all my basic information. Because I know that Internet has its dangers, which I avoided before I became addicted. But later I cracked. I put my info in, posted a picture, and waited for somebody to write me.
As at home we have only one computer, I was afraid that somebody could come and to take my sit while I was in kitchen making some snacks. That’s why I didn’t eat much and didn’t move at all till the moment I stopped feeling my butt.
My University had made me feel isolated because there weren’t too many people that I connected with easily. I couldn’t relate to people until I revealed what was on my mind—which was easier online. The Internet helped me expand my circle of friends. I think it’s a plus. Though this kind of communication has kept me from focusing on things like school, and that’s definitely bad.
And the first thing I...